And you wanted to dance so I asked you to dance...... But fear is in your soul........... Some people call it a one night stand .........But we can call it paradise.........

OK..... I have some questions.....

Why... when you're about to have an important evening (i.e. an engagement party) do you break out in zits all over your face? Especially when you haven't had a zit for about 15 years !!
and why.... do I feel like I have flu coming on after I've eaten a meal?
and why.... can't my mum start getting better instead of worse?
and why... does every word or phrase these days start with a #hashtag?

These questions and more have been plaguing me this week.... I can't believe I've had a breakout. WTF is that about? If mum was here, she'd say it was stress (or hormones) .... but I'm not under any more stress than normal.... not really..... (my hormones are probably all over the place so maybe that's it) Lucky we have make-up - cause I'm going to need it on Saturday night !!
The food thing is a weird one. Lately, after I've eaten, I feel like I have flu coming on. Especially in the mornings after breakfast and after evening meals.  I feel weak and like I have the chills. I need to lie down and get warm, then after about an hour I feel ok again. Daytime isn't as bad.

After four days on the Dexamethsone (Last Wed through to Sat) the coming down this week was pretty bad. I managed to work through most of it. Monday I struggled through the day until about 2pm then headed home and crashed. I ended up working until midnight, but that was OK as I'd had a sleep in the afternoon. Tuesday wasn't much better. But the meetings at work were a bit of a struggle. Especially as they were back to back from 10am through until 3pm without a break !! As I've said before.... lots of notes !! Wednesday (today) sick day ..... I needed to catch up. I slept until midday. After a shower and some lunch I finally started to feel ok again. So I now have two days left before I start the next cycle and it starts all over again. Starting Cycle 5 on Saturday means all pills on Saturday..... going on past experience,  it should be OK. Sunday will probably be worse that Saturday.... if Saturday night goes well I won't care by then.

Everything is ready for the party.... I think !! Caterers booked, bar staff booked, tables organised, booze ordered, lights and candles sorted. We should be ready to go. Music should be fine, we'll just put a playlist on. And seeing as we are not the traditional type, there'll be no speeches, just friends, beer, wine, bubbles and hopefully lots of laughs.

I've also asked my sister if she will join me for my wedding. I realised it wouldn't be the same without her on the day. So now I'll have my two besties and my sis by my side on the day. Perfect !! I'm pretty sure she'll be a lot nicer to me than I was to her for her day....but that's another story.... probably one that's best left un-written !!! I will write more after the party on Saturday evening.... but for now, it's 1am and time for some sleep..... short and sweet.....
night night ........