"....I don't wanna be my friend no more ......I wanna be somebody else"

I've been very annoyed today.... Not for any reason at all. Extremely irritable and agitated. Obviously I can blame the drugs as usual. That excuse can be used for pretty much everything these days. But today was another one of those days that was completely buzzed out, chemical, teeth achingly bad. But the moods were the worst today. Everything shit me off !! Including the fact that I'm about to get PMS for the first time in 5 years (I had to go off the pill) and also that I haven't had a shit for a week !!! Aarrrggghhhh !!!
Dirk and I also had tea arranged with my besty & her hubby and then they had to pull out at the last minute because of child issues and that shit me off too (sorry snap) not anyone's fault, and in normal circumstances all is forgiven, but not today. Nothing was forgiven today. Dirk asked once too many times the same question and he soon realized that he was no longer welcome in my presence and retreated to the cool air conditioned bedroom with headphones and iPad to watch an episode of The Inbetweeners !!! Who can blame him !!
It's just bloody awful some days..... The shakes today have been really bad. I was walking through the supermarket and had to hold onto the trolley as my hands were shaking so much I couldn't even pick up a box of cereals. I feel like I'm ready to stick it to anyone that may cross my path. Hey.... If you want to vent today.... Give me a call, I'm up for it !!!
These days are probably the hardest for both myself and Dirk. They come out of the blue without warning. I had no idea this morning I was going to be having one of "these types" of days. It just happened. And there's nothing anyone can do. God forgive if anyone tries to help or be sympathetic. That's the last thing I feel like !!
Today I got cross at the world.....

Day25....

Location:Alfred Cove