I dreamed of you at night time ...... And I watched you in your sleep

Well talk about doing something to take your mind off things .... Like a marriage proposal !! Wahoo what a way to raise the spirits and forget about everything (almost)It all came as an almighty surprise. I had no idea that the question was coming. And then the ring !!!! OMG just beautiful. Pink diamonds & diamonds. My absolute dream. But more than anything, just that feeling of happiness. I can't stop smiling, my eyes are shining and I look like the cat that got the cream !!

There's a 1000 questions now though. Where, when, how many, bridesmaids, best man, timing, health..... All things to consider. We started to think that maybe New Year's would be good.... But then what if my treatment leaves me weak & 'sans' hair .... a wig on a 38C day might not be a good idea!! But I want my family to all be able to come & we're all going to be together in NZ for Christmas.... So do we wait another year ?? We also want Dirk's family to all be there too so overseas is probably not ideal either...

I've never been a Muriel's Wedding type of girl. I have never put any thought into my wedding plans, dresses, rings or anything. So now I'm inundated with thought of "shit, where do I start ?" I've been to some pretty fantastic weddings in my time, so if I take all the things I've liked along the way, I'll start there. It's at times like these though, that you wish you had your mum & sister closer :-( even one of my bloody bridesmaids is in Dubai !! Looks like its me & Snapper !!! Nix has already bought me Martha Stewarts wedding planning magazine so I have a great bible to work from !! Thanks Nickers xx talking of which, she left me on Friday :-( back to Dubai and her amazing life !! It was sooo good to have her here. Thank you my gorgeous friend for being here. Love ya heaps xxxxxx

I started cycle 2 yesterday. Big drug day !! Some of everything. I felt mostly ok. By the afternoon I was a little jittery, so I took myself off to Garden City for a meander around. I'm going to get a name for myself as a spaced out girl that walks around, bumping into things and shaking !! But I find it takes my mind off things. I'm not sure Dirk is happy about the purchases made under the affects !! Haha .... at least I have a good excuse !! And a quick glance every now and again at the bling on my left hand certainly lessens the pain :-)

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